You Have to Start Somewhere - Honesty

It's painful to face, but I am at the heaviest I have ever been, barring pregnancy. Weighing in at 182 lbs., my 5'4" frame is not equipped to handle this weight without making my joints creek and my back ache.

I've tried lots of diets, fitness plans, fads, and trends, but lately I have been completely unmotivated to even try. With over 50 lbs to lose, I'm discouraged and frustrated.

With this photo journal, I am committed to taking a photo every day for a year and recording it here.  Along with the photo I will record my food plan for the day, and my success or failure the next day.  I will take regular measurements and share my exercise plan.

I have to believe that I can be successful, that I can be healthy, and that I am worth the struggle. I will also use the church's addiction recovery program as a guide for my blog.  There are 12 steps and I will tackle a step every month.  This month is honesty.

KEY PRINCIPLE: Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.

Powerless is definitely how I feel. I used to feel empowered, but now I just seem to not care. I eat without thought, and tell myself each night that tomorrow I will change, but it never happens. Part of the first step is being willing to abstain, to stop participating in the addiction. Since mine is food based and it is impossible to not eat I will commit to abstaining from processed food including packaged cookies, chips, and snack food. I will also limit my bread, pasta and rice intake to two portions per day from the three, focusing my food intake on vegetables, fruits, and good proteins.

To day I will eat:
B:  egg sandwich with turkey on English muffin and cantaloupe
L:  apple, salad, 1 tbs ranch, tomatoe, ham
D: Pizza with veggies and fetta and salad and fruit

Exercise: walk 3 miles.  Do 20 minutes calisthenics and stretching before bed.

Meditate and reflect on my day for 10 minutes.