Today is fine, but tomorrow is pizza night. Last Saturday that meant way over eating, and as a result I didn't lose any weight last week. This week I am down a pound and if I am careful for the next three days, I can make it two.
My plan for the day:
B: egg sandwich and fruit
L: 1/2 pita sandwich, veggies, and fruit
D: Grilled chicken, 1/2 baked potato, corn on the cob, salad, watermelon.
I did talk to a friend about going back to the gym and I hope to start that Monday.
The frustrating thing about this whole process is that my fat baseline always used to be 172. I could hold on to 172 to matter what I ate, and then one day - BAM! I'm at 182. 182? That can't be my new fat baseline. So now at 176, I am still just trying to get back to my normal fat baseline so I can really start this whole process. Crazy I know, but I hate that I let things get so far out of control. I was really at the point where I didn't care and was just eating garbage all the time.
I haven't talked about the addiction recovery program lately, but I think I'm ready to start step 2. I have accepted the fact that I am powerless and have really felt the spirit helping me these last few weeks as I try to make healthy changes.
Step two: KEY PRINCIPLE: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health.
That's a pretty powerful statement. Basically that sums up the atonement. If you don't believe that God can help you and restore you then life is pretty hopeless because we are very imperfect human beings that make mistakes all the time. I do believe God can help me and heal me, and I do believe in the atonement. I don't think I could even try if I didn't.
Today I will strive for consistency and integrity in my actions and reactions.
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